A few notes on Self

A few weeks ago I reached my 50th birthday.  My husband has asked me what I would like as a present – a new handbag perhaps, or maybe some jewellery.  I replied that the  only thing I  wanted was  a new camera.  Not the most obvious choice you might think for a woman turning 50, but it was what my heart desired the most.

It’s a lovely new shiny piece of kit, as you would expect.  But it’s much more than that.  You see, the camera came with a prime lens and as a result enables me to get a little closer to the type of photography I want to achieve.  And why does that matter ? Well, it matters because deep deep down somewhere a little part of me thinks I might have some potential and I might like to explore that potential a little further.

Are my photographs as good as the best you see on Instagram? Heck, no.

But are they better now than a few years ago? Absolutely !

Could they be better still ? Well, I sure hope so but I won’t know if I don’t try, if I don’t invest in myself.

And that’s what my new camera really means to me – it’s an investment in myself, my potential, my creativity. And, for me, you just can’t put a price on that.

And, spurred on by new camera, I thought I should invest a little further, because I’d really like to know more about how to use it. So I’ve booked myself on a ‘ Get more from your camera’ day where I’ll (finally) get the chance to talk to an expert. Am I a little nervous about going ? Yes, I am….but as the experts tell us, I should feel the fear and do it anyway ! Oh, and did I mention, I also bought two new photo books – to inspire, learn from and inform my perspective.

The internet is overflowing with quotes about self investment and personal growth.  None of them really struck a cord with me until I read these words by the poet Rupi Kaur…

‘You do not just wake up and become the butterfly

– growth is a process’

Even at the grand ‘young’ age of 50, I think I have scope to grow a little more.  I’m sure you do too.

Have a lovely Sunday x


In case you are interested in the details…

  1. The camera I got was  a Canon EOS 200d (kit only) with a 50mm prime lens. I chose this after doing a lot of research and from reading a blog post by the fabulous photographer Christina Greve which you can find here
  2.  The course I am attending is run by a local photographer called Paul Crawford and you can find more information here
  3.  The books I bought are published by Hoxton Mini Press, specifically ‘Botanical’ by Samuel Zeller and ‘Columbia Road’ by Johanna Neurath. As a side note, if you ever get the chance, a trip to Columbia Road in east London is well worth it for the gorgeous flower market which takes place there every Sunday. It was in fact the subject of my one earliest blog posts which you can read here.

  1. Belated Happy Birthday Paula. I think your photos are great already but I so admire you for doing this! Never stop learning.
    All my photos on my blog (and many on IG) have been taken with a decade-old Canon 1000d, which is still going strong and Canon proved to be a good choice.

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  2. Firstly, I want to say that your photos are already truly gorgeous, Paula. I totally get it why you have the desire to keep on learning and investing in yourself though. I think the camera is an amazing gift that will take you in many beautiful adventures. When one has health, 50 is a beautiful age despite what some people say. I’m 52, and I believe the best is yet to come. So you go girl. Have fun. You have the talent and creativity, the rest is up to you. Belated Happy Birthday! BTW Great quote. It fits perfectly with your pic and message.

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    1. Thank you Dominique. I think you are totally right..if you have good health, 50 seems the perfect age to pursue these things and I am very much looking forward to seeing where it takes me. I love the freedom that 50 seems to be bring…so bring it on !!

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  3. Lovely turning a young 50 and learning. i’m only turning 60 and have now learned to blog since past few years. Aint it great to impress oneself with something new !
    keep on. We love those beautiful photos.

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    1. Yes it’s great to realise you can keep on learning no matter what your age, and even surprise yourself ! Thank you for stopping by and taking the time to comment 🙂


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